A couple of months ago I wrote concerning what to do when the jolt of the unexpected shows up unannounced. It can be a wild ride. I wrote from a deep place in my heart because one of those out the blue situations had just shown up at my doorstep. I prepared myself to deal with it, focus on God to get through it, and then get through it.
However, I hit a snag. I expected something to fall into place on my time table, which surely was God’s time table. I discovered, once again, it isn’t. Again, I am struck with this truth: Waiting on God continues to be one of the hardest things I face in life. What have I felt? Irritated, frustrated, confused, fatigued. I find I’m not alone in this.
As I accept the reality of the situation I have a choice to make. I can stay in a place of desolation or entrust all to God knowing He loves me and He really will work it all out for good. I choose to let go of what I’m holding onto so He can do His deeper transforming work in me. That’s what I desire the most anyway.
I want to become more and more shaped into becoming the person God desires me to be, whole and complete. The way to get there sometimes includes having to go through the turbulent waters in the trial of waiting.
At least forty years ago my husband and I were in a difficult place of ministry. My heart had been deeply wounded by some people I thought were friends. I remember thinking, “How long, Lord? How long will this heartache last?”
I happened to be visiting some relatives and came upon a book in their home written by Andrew Murray. If ever I’ve known that God was there to comfort me, it was then. These are the words that jumped off one of the pages of that book. These words renewed my hope for being strengthened, healed, and brought through.
First, He brought me here, it is by His will I am in this strait place: in that fact I will rest.
Next, He will keep me here in His love, and give me grace to behave as His child.
Then, He will make the trial a blessing, teaching me the lessons He intends me to learn, and working in me the grace He means to bestow.
Last, in His good time He can bring me out again—how and when He knows.
Let me say I am here
By God’s appointment
In His keeping
Under His training
For His time.
Today I dug out my old Bible where I wrote those words many years ago. I needed them again. Maybe they’re for you, too.
What place of waiting does God have you in, today? How can you apply the words of Andrew Murray to your life, today?
We know that those who wait upon the Lord will renew their strength (Isaiah 40:31). Oh, Father, help us to trust You and wait well.
Beautiful words Kristi and just in time for this difficult time in my life too. Thank you for handing me the hem of Jesus’ robe again today!
The waiting that comes with the hardships in life is never easy. I realize I believed the circumstances that bring difficulties would ease up with time and even age. But not so. It seems they are more intense. Grateful we can be there for each other in this journey and that my words spoke to you.
Blessings of grace and peace.